Things I think I think.
Several of you have asked me what I think about when I’m walking. Before I answer, I want to say ‘Thank you!’ to all of you who hit an emoji, or leave a comment or share a post (plz share!) It’s very encouraging. More than you might think.
I wish I could say I think deep thoughts, but the truth is I try a lot of the time to not think. No kidding. Being honest here.
When I think, I think ‘What am I doing here?’ or ‘ What was I thinking when I thought that I could do this?’ or ‘Have I lost my marbles?’ or ‘Am I going to hurt myself permanently?’
When I think. I think of reasons why I should NOT be here trying to complete this walk. Negative thoughts far out way positive thoughts. So I try not to think.
There are a lot of reasons I can think of to quit. There is usually only one reason to continue – because I told myself I would continue. When a negative thought comes to mind, when a legitimate negative thought comes to mind, I tell myself often, ‘I’ll think about that later, AFTER I finish what I’ve started here.’
I’m pretty sure I’m not making much sense here. But I understand myself … usually.
I’ve been asked to speak at a retreat for an English speaking Chinese church. I use some of my walking time to prepare for that.
I have Libby on my phone and can download tons of audiobooks. I listen to books when I walk.
I make sure I have a Bible verse each day to chew on.
I try to think of something for Wilby to do each day.
I’m also only 11 days in on this 80+ day journey. I do want to go deep. Before that I want to find my feet, the confidence that I can continue. I think I can. Being honest here. I’m still not sure that at 70 (in September), I may have finally bit off more, make that way more, than I can chew.
